Missing In Action

I can’t do all the things I used to do. I can’t just get up and go. I can’t grab a random call or text. I can’t pick up and go on a trip. I can’t ‘make myself available’. I can’t talk for hours. I can’t get through full sentences sometimes. I can’t be counted on for anyone but my son. I am missing in action in a lot of spaces where I used to fill the gaps and my new normal isn’t normal at all.

I can’t predict what my days will look like, because while it is a lot of the same, it is also completely different. I can’t explain what I am doing at any minute because I honestly can’t even remember. It is a really hard thing to explain to ppl who aren’t or haven’t gone through it.

For all the times I was ever on a conference call with a new mom, for every new mom trying to figure out what their life will be like. For all the moms just trying to make it through the day. For all the moms struggling to find a routine, or feel like you have any control. For all the moms who are with your kid(s) alone all day. For all the working moms. For all the moms who are missing in action in so many other aspects of your life. I see you and you’re doing a great job!

Author: Randi