Identity

What happens when who people think you are and who you thought you were are so far a part you are left scratching your head in confusion? I think as a woman, who has largely defined my success by what I do, lines get blurry when what I did isn't what I'm currently doing now. This may be confusing, but I think if you know what I mean, you get it.

I am a business woman, a go-getter, a get-ish done, problem solving, relationship building phenom. Or, at least I thought I was. I think for the vast majority of my life that is who I have been, how I have identified and I believe how people have identified me.

Today, I don't associate myself with any of those things. I am not currently employed, I've been looking for the "right" opportunity, and along the way I have found very wrong ones. My ambition seems to be waining and my day to day involves very little problem solving.

I'm constantly frustrated by people who still interact with me like I am still that person, though I can't tell if it is because I'm annoyed that I don't feel like that person anymore, or because I feel like they should know me better.

So who am I? Great Question!

Though she seems to be adding skills and qualities to her arsenal, I think that old identity is still there, she is just way more diversified. It is ok to be all those things, and still not feel like you always relate to those qualities. I don't think we need to always be all the things that make us up, at all times. Though, I have suffered from that thinking for most of my life.

I still possess all of those characteristics, and I intend to use them again in the very near future. For now I have added a little more selfishness (in a good way), self-reflection, awareness and patience to my persona. I am excited to see how these newer (much needed) qualities interact with my old, tried-and true qualities, when I put them to use in this new chapter in my life.  

Author: Randi